After my interesting experience giving a medical practitioner a Functional Integration lesson, it was my turn to be on the receiving end. When I got to his office he took me into a treatment room and asked me what was wrong with my neck. “Nothing,” I replied. “Huh,” he said, “I see a lot of asymmetries in your cervical spine. You also have really bad posture with a forward head and rounded shoulders, and you slouch, which really surprises me. I would have thought that as a dancer and a Feldenkrais® practitioner you would know better.” He gave me a penetrating look while he said this. Good grief!
To say that his statements were jarring to my nervous system was the understatement of the century. A familiar but long abandoned pattern of negative self-talk began to form in my mind. I felt my throat tighten and tears threaten to well up in my eyes. After all, maybe I really didn’t know any better and perhaps I was a charlatan to even call myself a dancer, let alone a Feldenkrais® practitioner and a PT.
He asked me about any injuries I had, but I was so rattled I couldn’t think of any. Finally, I remembered one. I told him I had an insidious onset of incapacitating low back pain twenty years ago. “That’s not an injury, ” he replied. Gee, it felt like an injury during the two years I spent as a chronic pain patient. But then again, maybe I really didn’t know that, if I didn’t even realize that my neck and my posture was so mucked up. More negative self-talk started to rear it’s ugly head as tears once again loomed behind my eyes.
However, right before I had a major meltdown, Moshe Feldenkrais came to the rescue and saved the day. I suddenly realized that the practitioner was just administering what he believed was appropriate and effective medical intervention. It was his belief system in this method, and I’m sure it does work well for thousands of people. My belief system is quite different, even though I was trained in this model as a PT, but it never did seem to work for me, either as a therapist or as a patient.
Once I had that revelation, the entire experience took on a different energy. He continued his litany of things that were wrong with me and I cheerfully agreed with him. After all, I know I’m not perfect; none of us are. But that doesn’t mean that there is anything wrong with me. It ended up being a pleasant treatment as well as another learning experience for me.
In Feldenkrais® we focus more on what we can do rather than what we can’t do. Just a few days ago I received a lovely text from one of my favorite clients who has become a dear friend. She thanked me for helping her see beyond her limitations, especially since everyone else over the years had focused on what was wrong with her rather than her endless possibilities.
There was no need to thank me. I am just the messenger. The real credit goes to the man and the genius behind this magic method we call Feldenkrais®, who said that what he is after is to restore to each person their human dignity. How lovely is that?